Before you
You see me.
You look into my heart,
even if you know I don't like
be so open with you.
I am uncomfortable
I could hate myself for it,
not to see my facade upright,
to let my wall collapse.
Even if it is only you,
who can see me like this,
You, who are always there,
I'm not wearing anything in front of you.
No layers of cotton wool that serve as buffers,
no baggy clothes that hide me.
I do not stand before them,
only in front of you,
I can't scare you.
I stand before you as I am,
as you created me.
Even if I don't like myself
and don't know what suits me.
Then I drift in the open sea
without seeing a direction
and you bring me to you,
only you can pull me to the shore.
I can rely on you,
give myself completely into your hands,
but I can't dare,
cannot give up the rudder.
I'm so tense,
doesn't want to lose control.
Not even in your hand.
Can't let myself be led.
And I float in a vacuum
and what I should do,
I hardly know
and my head is so full,
because I can't find my task
in this world balance.
But I think you have a plan
which I have no idea about yet.
©Maike Pütz
Instagram: @123mai12
If you don't yet know what your plan is or you are still unsure, I want to encourage you to take time to ask God!
God is good and knows exactly what is good and right for you!
Sometimes it is enough to simply find peace in his presence.
YOU ARE BLESSED AND LOVED!